The Tesimony of Kim Bowser

This was my answer straight from God, I just knew it!!!

These were the words given to me over thirteen years ago as I was suffering GREAT agony in my soul.

The source of pain was due to the overwhelming, suffocating grief I felt for all my life’s choices. All the dreams I had came crashing down around me. All the things I said I’d never do, I had done.

What struck me odd was when and where this realization took place. It was just another ordinary workday for me. I can remember clearly standing one minute watching my boss working on a project, we’re talking, and in mid sentence I turn and walk away from him, tears streaming down my face. I feel like I can’t breathe. With my back to my boss, I’m trying to catch my breath and figure our why I’m crying. Silently the tears flow and I feel like I am getting sicker. Standing there, I’m afraid my heart and chest will burst open with some kind of BLACK disease. I start thinking, “Oh if only I could be born again and grow myself up all over again. Oh the choices I would make; they would be so, so very different.” All the while I’m still standing in that same spot crying silently; SUCH ANGUISH!!!

It seem so surreal, as if everything around me had stopped. Not my thoughts though, they were racing and the sickness in me kept rising bigger, with one unrelenting question: Can I ever be pure again? This question was so loud in my heart and head I turned and looked at my boss. He seemed startled and asked me what was wrong. All I could say was “Don’t you wish you could take back some of the things you’ve done in life?” I really don’t remember his answer. I only remember going to sleep that night crying and wishing I could be pure again.

The next morning I woke up and remembered crying myself to sleep and here was that same question: Can I ever be clean and pure again?

I was so sad as I drove to work that I just shut down. As I was driving the last few blocks to work a car pulled in front of me. All I thought was, “Nice, you just had to slow me down, didn’t ya!” As I drove along behind this car I tried to make sense of what the car’s license plate said. I started saying the words out loud when it hit me: yesucan. Oh, the plate says yes you can. Oh, I get it and then I said, “Yes you can what?” Then I started to giggle and get excited. I just knew this was an answer for me from God. Yes, I could be pure and clean again! I was so happy because I felt special and heard. But it only brought me the next logical question which was how?

I would have to wait another six years before I’d get my answer. It came on a little slip of paper my kids brought me from Sunday school. It read: if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes to righteousness and with the mouth confession is made to salvation. Rom. 10:9,10 (NKJV) I went home, looked it up in my Bible and a few weeks later I did exactly what it said and the message became clear to me. GOD LOVES ME!!!! It was that simple. I felt it and I knew it for the first time.

I was so ecstatic I wanted everyone to know. I want you to know too. GOD LOVES ME AND HE LOVES YOU TOO!!!!!!!!

It seemed to simple and too, too silly to some that God would speak to me through a license plate. Well here’s another way God says it: Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean; wash me and I shall be whiter than snow. Make me to hear joy and gladness that the bones which you have broken may rejoice. Hide your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquities. Create in me a clean O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me (Psalm 51:7-10 NKJV).

And that’s just what He’s been doing in me ---- every day I choose Him!

Ain’t God a KICK!!! SO GOOD AND SO FAITHFUL!!!!!!

What’s He saying to you?

LOOK, LISTEN ------- HE’S SAYING HE LOVES YOU!!!!!

ALL THE GLORY IS GOD’S!!!!!

Kim Bowser